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Dvr H.Adler
PAL/30775
650, G.T.Coy R.A.S.C
“B”Platoon     

6 May 1943

My sweet, little darling,

I feel too sick to write you a long letter explaining my suffering about this stupid, cruel, horrible situation. I can only begin to write and after two, three sentences to tear up the letter The best thing for my? is not to write and to suffer in silence or—to get properly drunk. But since I have a heap of things to tell you, I’d better to write you a short telegraphic letter, begging you to combine your good will, intelligence and your love for me – and understand me, darling..

         At first, that I make you wait so long and uselessly at the cafe Atara.  You will wait for me and I won’t come. My God, have you grasped all the horror of the sentence I have just written! Yvette, my dearest little wife! You, you wait for me and I, I do not come- understand darling, I beg you. And forgive me.

It’s like this, you see. It is Thursday. Only today did I learn that I have to leave for far away on Saturday, this Saturday. And it is today also that I received your lovely letter where you speak lovingly of our Saturday meeting.  You tell me of your impatience to see me, your joy to know that soon we will see each other.[…]

Oh Yvette, so much loved, the so much desired, I am compelled by the men, by the war, by fascism, to deceive you cruelly and deceive myself! And I have not the means to warn you, so quickly has the unhappiness arrived. I ask myself what you will do here, this Saturday and Sunday. That tortures me. I console myself with the fact that the kibbutz is not far, that you have friends there. Or even better, that you will go and find Ouri.

But there’s something else that worries me greatly: You don’t mention any leave. Now on the 16^th of May – in ten days- I will receive seven days leave

           Following the letter from your officer and the agreement of my O.C.

Even if it is very far off, this leave, I will certainly have it.  Today, as a matter of fact, I had a talk with my sergeant and it is a sure thing. So, on the 16^th (Sunday) I will come to the Strauss’s. And I am not sure that you will be there.  This long leave consoles me for the loss of our Saturday. But what will happen if I come on the 16^th to spend a week with you- and you’re not there?!  And to say that there will be no way of my receiving a letter from you before that date![….]See you again in ten days.

Your

Henry