Yvette to Henri.

21 July Vienna

My darling,

[….] You still don’t know whether I will come to Warsaw. It’s not really fair. I am happy before you are. But truly, I can’t send you a telegram. I must keep the little money I have for the journey. It’s indispensable. But in a few days you will know too. And you won’t have more than two weeks to wait before I am with you. […] Do you remember that white night dress with blue dots? You will find it a little changed; five years is quite long for a shirt!  But it still exists. It is nicer than before. And you, darling have you changed? Your heart is the same, I know that well. Your have kept your youth intact and pure. You have said so yourself. As for me, I don’t know. I can’t tell you. My hair is longer than it was at Villard, the last time you saw it. I have still more freckles. […] Tell me, little one, is there anything I can bring you from here? I have no idea at all, of the economic situation in Poland. It must surely lack many things, like everywhere else. But which? [….} As I write that I imagine you replying: “I lack nothing but you.” And I’m sure that’s true because we are just the same, we two. It’s you that I lack. I didn’t know that for a long time. And now I do. […]  You propose that I live in Poland and you tell me that you earn enough money for three, then for four. Then I must be the lazy one. We will have to reflect on that.[…] If I were quite alone, without son, without mother, I would tell you immediately that I would come and live in Warsaw or the Cameroons or Kamtchatka or anywhere else with you. I would have asked Warsaw for an indefinite visa. We will talk about it. I want to live with you. That’s all I can say. And I want it very much indeed. Definitely. […] I don’t ask whether you prefer a boy or a girl, it makes more sense not to have a preference. Don’t you think so darling? Even Ouri is philosophical about it and says it doesn’t matter at all whether he has a brother or a sister. So long as there is a baby. He is quite right. And surely you agree too.  So darling, next year we will have a baby. And that will be good.  I already feel the sweetness of the days that bring me towards you. […]